This is our front yard:
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
Very bummed. And now that I've lost two days work, I'll have to come in the week after Xmas to make it up, as I can't afford to miss any more days. Next paycheck's already gonna hurt, since the company I work for has enforced a mandatory 10 day vacation, and I didn't have any days left (used them all for my surgery earlier this year). I guess I ought to be grateful I'm still working, period, but I'm feeling abused by work. Not getting my exec title back (one of these years, maybe my boss will fulfill his promise - yeah, right...), not getting proper raises.... geeeesh. And this isn't the time to look for other work - been looking; but there's a lot of competition out there right now (so many layoffs in the area). Plus, so many businesses going out of business. Best to stay put for now.
Only highlight today; down two more pounds. And I was sure I gained - been baking up a storm (Xmas cookies!) and tasting too many of my own wares - killer snickerdoodles, if I do say so myself :o)
Rambling now - maybe I just ought to go back to bed... bah, humbug.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Friday, December 5, 2008
Been waiting to post all week, as pictures were taken and Miss R said she'd e-mail them to me, but she hasn't had the opportunity to do that yet.
So, here we are in the holiday season. I love Christmas and everything around it, but this year, I'm just not in. I'm not sure if it's the economy, or all the layoffs (both with my own company and in the area), but it's as if I feel I don't have the right to feel jovial when there's so much unhappiness around. Silly, I know, but there you go.
So, gonna try to drag out the Xmas boxes this weekend and get our place gussied up. Sparky gets his picture taken tomorrow with Santa, so I can get our Xmas cards done (I always prefer to make them, if I can). See if I can't make myself get in the mood. I was just in the supermarket, where they were playing Xmas music, and I found myself singing along, so that's a good thing.
Miss T, if you're reading this, answer my e-mail - P and I would love to see you, 'k?
Thursday, November 27, 2008
I am so thankful for:
- the love of my Special K
- my family and my friends
- Mr. Sparky No-barky
- still having my job, unlike 150 of my former co-workers
- still being able to afford to pay the bills and keep a roof over our heads
- the insurance from work that allowed my WLS
- the WLS itself - that it's working fantastic and that I'm able to work it
- days like this Tuesday past; had a terrific time at Mr. T's - he had a house full of women, baking up a storm - what fun we had!
- not having to do Turkey day at our house - God Bless R&W! Not only did they invite us, they also invited my folks and my brother. How nice and how cool is that?!
- waking up this morning, ready to face a new day
- my warm, fuzzy - size XL! - bathrobe
It occurs to me how lucky I am - sure, the economy sucks, there are a lot of uncertainties in the world right now, and there's a good possibility of more layoffs come January. But I refuse to worry about what I have no control over.
So right here? Right now? Life is good.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
We have this big Lazy Boy recliner, and when we were "courting," I'd snuggle up in her lap, which usually led to.... (keepin' it family friendly here - you fill it in)
Well, this morning, I was on the computer, and Special K sits in the recliner behind me. As I'm turning stuff off to go get ready for work, she said, "come here," so I did, and she pulled me down in her lap. sigh - life is good
One of my favorite things to do is snuggle!
What a wonderful way to start off the day!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Just for grins and giggles, I tried on the size 18 jeans this morning, and sure enough, they fit, with room to spare. I just can't believe it. I just tried the size 20 at the beginning of the week and was jazzed when they fit, although, I waited too long. They were a tad big already.
I thank the Goddess for being able to have taken this journey. I am grateful that our insurance actually, for once, came through for me and allowed me to have this procedure done. I am grateful that, for me, it's working. Although, I have to give myself some credit - I'm making it work. Cuz, really, it is work - don't let anyone tell you that weight loss surgery is taking the "easy way out." I've said it before - this is one of the hardest things I've ever undertaken, but it's also the best thing I could have done for myself.
I am equally surprised that my Special K hasn't gotten tired of me yet - all this self-obsession. Sometimes I feel like my focus is too much inward, but she tells me, it needs to be at this time, in order for this thing to work.
Just one of the very many, many reasons I love that woman - she's so wise.
Friday, November 14, 2008
I got so emotional this morning - I had to call Special K into the bathroom to double check the scale for me - did it really, truly say "200"? When she confirmed that yes, it did, I started crying - I was just overwhelmed. Starting again just typing this - silly; huh?
Then I decided to try those size 20 Levi's I got from a co-worker. When I tried them last, they fit, but only after I laid down and sucked it in to zip it up. At that time, it wasn't comfortable sitting - still needed to lose a little more. Well, this morning, they zipped right up. If anything, they're a little loose. Should've worn a belt today; I keep having to hitch them up. But, dang, does it feel good!
I can't stop smiling this morning. Just constantly amazed at my journey so far and how good it all feels right now.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Although, if I'm totally honest, I did have a three pound gain within this two week period that I just refuse to acknowledge (too late, huh - just did), so technically, I've lost 4 pounds over the past two weeks.
Not sure why I had the gain - I'm not doing much different. We did go to Denny's for brunch (too late for breakfast, but a little early for lunch) and I ordered off the Senior menu - yes, I did! Not quite 50, but this neck of mine actually came in handy. Not only is it less expensive, but it comes in smaller portions, too, on small plates. I ordered the chicken-fried steak - had mashed potatoes on the side with a salad. Ate most of the salad, so only could do a few bites each of the steak and potatoes, but it felt so good to have a "full" meal. Typically, when I eat these days, it's all one thing (ie: soup, or beans, or salad), so it was a nice change of pace to have a "regular" meal.
But I have to realize, too, that I'm coming up to my 6 month mark, so the weight loss will be slowing down a bit. Bummer; kind of like losing 3 or 4 pounds a week - lol. But slower is better - will be apt to stay off, I'm thinking.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Friday, October 31, 2008
This year I was the Bride of Dracula. I wore a dress from over 10 years ago - amazing that it fits. And I kept hearing, "wow, is that you?! Didn't recognize you!"
Of course, didn't help that I had a black wig on :o)
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Well, it all fits again - yea, buddy! What fun! And an added bonus; the bras are underwires, so there's no band sitting on my bump.
Life is good.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
I finally figured out that yesterday was the first day without Prilosec. I had finished the two-week regiment the day before. I had hoped that I wouldn't have to continue to take it - it's not meant for every day use. But after walking the Sparkster this morning, we went to Target and got some more. I took one when I got home, and it's a little better today. Had some beans and they're sitting OK, for the most part. Stomach still hurts, though not as bad as yesterday. Hopefully, tomorrow, the Prilosec will kick in and I'll feel "normal" again. I've gotten spoiled over the past two weeks - I like feeling normal lol.
So the new gig - wanted to find something very part time-ish. Thought I found it with the casino dealing, but even though that was a lot of fun, the hours are too few and far between, so I wanted something else. There's a nightclub in Bellevue - a billiard parlor, actually, with music and a dance floor, and I got the job of restroom attendant. The potential for great tips are there - I just have to build the regulars. Only two nights a week (Fri & Sat), for 4.5 hours each night. That's doable. See how long I last. Friday was my first night and it was kinda fun. Last night, not so much, but I think that's because I felt so lousy.
And oddly, on the way from my interview/training session last Wed, I got a call from the fellow that I used to update his rug sites. He wanted to know if I wanted to still work for him, as his business picked up a little and he needed the help. I said sure. So now I have three part-time jobs. The rugs, the nightclub and the business man I help a few times a week.
Whew. I'm tired just typing that.
Friday, October 24, 2008
This weekend, I'm taking all of my over-sized clothes to Tent City out on Mercer Island. It's gotten very cold at night (37 degrees this morning!) and someone will get use out of my coats and whatnot. I'm only taking out the nice office wear, so that I bring those to "Dress for Success" in Seattle (an organization for women with little means to find something to wear to go out on interviews). I was going to try to sell my nice leather coat, but I think I'll just give that to them, as well. It's warm and it'll make me feel good to know someone will get good use from it.
It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood - cold, but beautiful!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Just wanted to update anyone who was wondering....
But two pounds down this morning - getting close to Onederland. It's been 20 years since I've weighed 100 something, so it's still so exciting. And today is the 5th month since surgery, so 121 - not too shabby.
Went shopping this weekend and found that I'm fitting into XLs - what a feeling to go into any store, pick something you actually like off the rack and have it fit. Amazing! Found a pretty pink turtleneck, a kick-ass white/black short-cropped jacket (for dirt cheap - it was on the wrong rack, and the store honored the much, much lower price - too cool!), and a black shell I got to go with that jacket. All for just about $10 - I love discount racks! LOL Makes it so much easier to go clothes shopping. It's actually fun now, where before, I would almost dread it.
A few pictures from the Heart Walk:
From left to right; CJ, Sam, Carin, Kathy and Angela. CJ and Angela both had weight loss surgery and have done very well. Sam is doing her own thing and is down 100 pounds already! So proud of all of them. Aileen and Peggy (the other two ladies who have had this procedure) wasn't around when we had this picture taken, which was a bummer. Would've liked one with all of us.
And Kathy and me with two of the Sea Gals (cheerleaders for the SeaHawks)... Couldn't find the SeaHawk mascot, like last year. Too bad.. cute bird lol
Thursday, October 16, 2008
It is so wonderful to feel "normal." Not to have issues with the tummy - was getting very old feeling sickly all the time.
The only thing I have to watch now is that I've noticed that I'm hungrier this week, especially in the evenings. I want to snack - not necessarily because I'm hungry; just feel like having a little something. And this is not good.
Got taken out to lunch by a vendor today - I ordered a Seafood Chopped Salad - baby greens and spinach with crab and bay shrimp, tomato, cucumber, artichoke with blue cheese crumbles and a light vinaigrette. So yummy - loved it - was able to eat a half of a small order. I was amazed how much I did eat. And here it is, just a few hours later, and I'm hungry.
All part of the process, I imagine. Gotta deal with it, and just say "no" when my mind says "go get something."
Sunday, October 12, 2008
My only complaint is with Qwest Field. I just don't get how anyone can disregard a whole section of the population, no matter how unpopular. We went down right at the end of half time to go outside to blow a cloud. But, per NFL regulations, no re-entry allowed after kick-off, so if we went out of the gates, they would not let us back in. OK, fine - so where is the smoking section? You guessed it - there wasn't one! How flippin' rude is that?! We were there from 12:30 until 4:30 - that's four hours. They have this big, ole plot of land - you can't tell me they cannot designate a corner outside, away from everything for us poor folk that don't heed the surgeon general's warnings. But, no - they told us at the gate that it's the Health Dept that dictates that there be no smoking section. So, between the NFL and the Health Dept, we're screwed.
Not very nice at all.
For most of my journey, I experience nausea quite often, with a good amount of discomfort around that bump I've got. But last week was exceptionally bad. In speaking with one of the other ladies at work who had had this surgery too, I found out a possible solution - Prilosec. Picked some up yesterday and yesterday was a joy (probably helped that I didn't wear a bra all day, too - sassy, I know, but hey, it was Saturday). Took one this morning and so far, so good. Able to enjoy my coffee and it's feeling good.
Have a great week, all! Keep your fingers crossed for the Pack!
Monday, October 6, 2008
Kind of a let down, though. While this year's Heart Walk was the most satisfying for me, in terms of my personal goal, the terrific team we had and the money we raised for a great cause, it was also the most disappointing one for me. We weren't together as a company as we had been in the past, and I feel the Heart Walk itself dropped the ball this year. It was all so lackluster. There was no truck at the beginning of the walk, calling out companies names, as they've always done, and the finish banner was not at the end of the walk, it was by the doors to the stadium with no photographer to take pictures. I don't bring a camera because they always have photographers all over (and you can go on-line afterwards to get those pictures).
I know times are tough with a possible recession heading our way, and maybe that's why the Heart Walk only pulled in 1.5 mil this year (I believe that's the lowest it's raised since we've been doing this), but it was as if they showed their disappointment on Saturday. Yeah, OK, it was a little wet, but it wasn't the all-out gale and wind folks thought it would be. We even had a bit of sunshine while up on the viaduct!
Oh, well. So that's that. I'll post pictures once they become available.
Wonderful weekend with Special K, though. Even though we didn't find Fido Fest Saturday (we went to the University District after the walk and drove all through it, but just couldn't find it), we had a nice day - took Sparky to Marymore Park (he just loves it there). Yesterday, we visited Mr T up in Monroe where we met his new lady friend - love her! She's a kick - perfect match for Mr T. We had had jumbo blue crabs flown in from Maryland and had those with corn on the cob and a beautiful big fruit salad Mr T threw together.
I haven't lost anything for quite a few days now, but I'm not minding, cuz I'm glad I've not gained. I ate well yesterday!
And as for the Heart Walk, I think we'll just write a check next year.
Friday, October 3, 2008
And going to see a friend on Sunday - we ordered jumbo Maine crabs (last of the season!) and will be enjoying them while watching some ball game (I'm there for the crab and company, obviously lol). I love that I can do crab, cuz that has always been one of my favorites - up there with lobster - yum!
So fun weekend coming up. Looking forward to good times, good food and good friends!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
I know I need to call my primary doctor, even though I have an appointment with her in about a week and a half. I go in for a mamo today, but I don't think they can take an x-ray of my chest without someone's sayso.
Very disappointed in Dr. L - I expected more from him.
Although if I think about it, it shouldn't surprise me. My first impression of him was that he was a swarmy fellow. I had changed my mind because I'm so pleased with how my experience is going, but that really isn't any indication or reflection on him. It's because of me - I'm choosing to make the most of what I've had done.
When I read the boards over at Obesity Help, I see that other surgeons demand that their potential WSL patients lose weight prior to the surgery, and do blood tests to determine whether they truly stopped smoking (if they were a smoker). Other surgeons seem to be a lot stricter than Dr L, and while I suppose I'm grateful for that (I actually gained prior to my surgery lol - went through that last-time-itis), it's always been a little annoying when I went to see him afterwards. He's so quick to get me out his office, it seems. I'll have questions, and I'll get some asked, but before you know it, I'm out the door.
Not happy. My assessment of Dr. L? Back to swarmy.
Monday, September 29, 2008
I checked with one of the other ladies here at work that have had this procedure, and she's not noticed any bump. So, I guess I need to go check it out. I already have a mamo scheduled for this week, and I'm seeing my regular doctor next week.
Trying very hard not to freak.
Friday, September 26, 2008
We had our one big fundraising event yesterday at work - our annual baked potato sale. We get one-pound potatoes and we lay out a bar with all the fixings you can think of to put on a potato; cheese (shredded and hot nacho cheese), chili (regular and vegetarian), onions, bacon bits, jalapenos, sour cream (fat free and regular), steamed broccoli florets, butter, Smart Balance, and one of team members made Pico de Gallo, which was very popular - folks couldn't say enough good things about it.
We hadn't gotten as many orders as we have historically, and we think that's due to the current economy. Folks are tightening their belts and holding on to their shekels. But we made 13 extra, just in case. Well, not only did we sell all the extras, but we sold the six no-shows and one from someone out ill. Way cool. Raised a total of $432 for the Heart Walk, after expenses.
And our team? Totally, freakin' amazing. Special K and I have done this sale now for five years (this was our fifth event), and we sometimes were on our own or maybe one or two other helpers. Well, this year - phew! We had a total of seven of us down there yesterday - totally amazing. It went so well - the best ever. Very Jazzed.
So our team has met it's goal, and I made my personal goal - yea, Team!
Donations are always welcome, if you haven't already. Even though we've reached our goals, the object is to get as much as we can for this amazing charity. The good they do is phenomenal.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Sad to see the summer go, for a change. I've been so cold the past several days. Gonna be a rough winter, I think.
Visited the folks yesterday to celebrate Mum's birthday. She decided she didn't want to go out to eat, so she set a table. She always sets such a nice table - she had cold cuts and breads, salmon mousse, croquettes, fried green beans (yes, you read that right - from Costco - they were good! Came with a Wasabi dip), steak tartar (used to be one of my faves - didn't even try it; just knew it wouldn't have worked), a great salad, fried broccoli and cauliflower florets and brandied cherries!
I went for the croquettes, but whereas the last time we visited, I ate a bunch, this time, the first bite told me "no, not today" so I just ate the insides out about three of them and then went for a small plate of salad. That was delicious - was able to put some egg on and had honey mustard dressing - very yummy.
People ask me if I ever miss eating "normal." Yes, occasionally - I won't lie. But very infrequently. Yesterday, looking at that steak tartar, I wanted it something fierce, but I was afraid I would get stuck and it's been a while since I have, so I didn't want to chance it. While the want was there for just a few moments, I got over it very quickly.
Cuz I'm liking what I see in the mirror more than what that steak tartar would have tasted like.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
When I had my follow-up with my surgeon, he expressed concern that I'm not getting enough protein in, and I agree. I also know I'm not getting enough water down every day. While I sit here at the computer, I'm good at drinking, but for the rest of the day, I forget. I always have a bottle out on my desk at work, but more often than not, I don't remember, it gets warm and it ends up back in the fridge.
One of the drawbacks from weight loss surgery is that it is extremely important to monitor your nutrition, and that's not always easy to do. Hair loss and bone mass loss are highly possible if you don't get the right nutrients down. I've had some hair loss, but very little, so I'm not sure if it's because I'm not getting enough protein or just the age thing. I feel dizzy when I bend over for any length of time and that's because I know I'm not getting enough of anything down. It would just be too funny if I end up malnourished.
Even though I feel constantly hungry, it's a different hungry than what I would feel, pre-surgery, and I can live with the feeling. It's almost become second nature. I know I should eat something, but most often just don't feel like it. I usually have to make myself eat, and I'm not sure if this is a good thing. Sometimes I actually still look forward to a meal (like today; going the folks for my mum's birthday, and she's going to have those little croquette balls - yum!).
So, I'm just waiting to see how my blood work comes out. Hopefully, all is well, or at least still fixable.
I find it ironic that I started out life not really wanting to eat much. My mother always struggled with me to get food down. Then I hit puberty and hit the tarmac running and wouldn't stop eating. It would be really funny if I reverted back to not wanting to eat for the last part of my life.
A circle complete. Ah, well, that's supposed to be good thing, at least in the Chinese culture.
Friday, September 12, 2008
Thursday, September 11, 2008
I have naturally gravitated over to salads and soups and fruits, because my taste buds have changed. Things that tasted good pre-surgery no longer do - for example, rice. I used to love rice. It just doesn't taste the same anymore. I'm liking fruit a lot more than I did. Craving veggies. I pretty much don't eat meat or poultry anymore, cuz it just doesn't work. Occassionally I'll have ground beef or ground chicken, but I do much better with fish, and while I always liked fish, I like it more now.
My number one problem before was my Coca-Cola habit - 3,4, sometimes 5 cans/bottles a day. Now I just don't care for the taste of it - I prefer 7-Up, which I never cared much for before. And I drink very little at a time - I prefer it in my frosty mug so that it turns to ice and I eat it with a spoon. Weird, huh? I do occassionally crave some chocolate, but when I do, I like a Butterfinger. I bought a bar a few weeks ago, and that thing lasted me over a week. I'd have a bite and I was fine.
I'm trying to instill some good eating habits, so that when my 6-month honeymoon period is over, I can sustain the weight and not put it back. That would be the ultimate let down for me, if I allowed myself to do that. Just shoot me then, and be done with it, cuz I did not go through all this just to end up big again. That just is not an option. If I see myself headed that way, I swear I'll get my jaw wired shut.
My follow-up with Dr L went great - he was amazed how much I have lost in just over 3 months. He has a concern, as I do, that I'm not getting enough protein, so he ordered a blood test. I need to go do that. But he's pleased with my progress.
So, onwards and upwards. The holidays are approaching (where did this year go?) and I have to mentally prepare myself that things are different this year, so many things I enjoyed in the past are no longer an option. Thanksgiving will be interesting.
But I have to remember it's just one day. And that's all I can do, is do it one day at a time.
So far, so good.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Monday, September 8, 2008
Yesterday, we went to a Mariner game at Safeco Field. A co-worker had given us the tickets, as she couldn't go. What a wonderful afternoon. We drove to the park and ride, and then caught the game special to the ball park. Only way to go. No hassle trying to find parking and maneuvering through the traffic - less expensive, too. We saw one parking lot charging $25! Outrageous. The bus cost us $12 total, coming and going. It dropped us off right at the corner of the park, and picked us up at the same place. We were in and out so fast. Beautiful. And then the game - it was a gorgeous summer's day - I was just a little chilly as our seats were in the shade the entire time, and there was a wind blowing, but Special K brought her jacket - good thing for me. I had nachos (chips, cheese and jalapenos!) and K had a dog - we shared a beer, and then some peanuts. Felt terrific - made it even nicer. And the Mariners won! Yea, team!
Only frustrating thing - it's been about a week, and no pounds lost. I know there will be plateaus, but a week. Not liking that.
Seeing my doctor today for my 3-month follow-up.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
I really love living up here in the Northwest, but sometimes, I really miss L.A. - actually it's people we left behind that I miss. Moonface is one of these people - such a sweetheart; a total love. Sassy, too, though - one thing that always comes to mind is his hair. If it was raining or too windy, good Lord, watch out. Never a strand out of place. Too funny!
So, it was terrific hearing from him and finding out he's been reading this blog (Hi, Mr. S! man - that sounds stuffy; ok, let's try this - Hi, Moonface! yup, much better) and hearing his good wishes.
Just really grateful for the terrific family and friends that I have - life goes best with love!
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
You see, we had our yard sale this weekend. Half the proceeds are going to the AHA Heart Walk. We did best on Saturday and less than a third of that on Sunday. Most disappointing. We barely reached $200, so we're rounding it up, and $100 will go to the Heart Walk. Really expected to do better than that, and I blame the weather. No one wanted to come out in such icky conditions. Oh, well, we do what we can.
And the cold - I felt like I was freezing all weekend. I very nearly turned the heat on yesterday, but our house is very drafty and takes a lot to heat. It's expensive, so I didn't want to start that yet. My sweats are falling off of me - really need a new pair. And I wore socks yesterday! For those that know me and my hatred of pretty much anything on my feet, that's something. I have to wonder if it's the weight loss that's making me feel the cold so much more. It was the same at work last week - I pretty much froze all week. Good thing I have a shawl here or I would've been sitting at my desk with my jacket lol.
So, it's September already. And Fall will be here soon enough.
I think it's gonna be a very cold winter.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
We're holding a yard sale this weekend, with half the proceeds going to the AHA Seattle Heartwalk. We were going to give it all, but then we realized this mama needs some more new clothes. Most of my wardrobe is just way too big, now, and I need some more smaller things. Warmer things - it's cold outside today, and if this is an indication how our fall/winter is gonna be, I definitely will be needing some warm stuff. All my jackets are way too big. Bummer, though; I hate to buy a jacket until I'm down to my goal weight. Need to visit some thrift stores and see what I find.
I'm also grateful, that so far, my skin is shrinking along with the weight. I've seen and heard horror stories of folks that have gone through WLS with pounds of excess skin hanging from their bellies and arms and legs. The only part of me not disappearing as well as I'd like is my chin. Never realized I was so vain, but I'm hatin' that chin. Lots of wrinkles - bleh.
But I'm feeling great these days, and that's the most important part.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Went to our company picnic this Saturday past - what a wonderful day! It was hotter than I would have liked (in the 90's, it was), but R&W got there just before we did and scored us a lovely spot by the creek, in the shade and with a picnic table. And throughout the afternoon, no matter where the sun moved, we stayed in the shade. Everyone had a good time.
Here are some pics, showing the current "me." Man, when did my hair turn white? Yeah, ok, grey.
Time to make a trip to the hairdresser.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Yesterday was one of those rare summer days where it got hot - upper 80's. And I have never cared for hot. My preference is a cool, cloudy day - much more comfortable. I am always amazed at myself when I think how many years I lived in Southern California, and I did most of my living in the San Fernando Valley. If you're not familiar with the area (in Los Angeles), the summer there sees temps up to 115, sometimes. I lived in the pool down there.
Anyway, I noticed yesterday that while it was hot, I was not overly uncomforable. Still didn't care for it, but I wasn't to the point of extreme discomfort, as I once was when it would get that hot. I have to put that down to not being as big as I used to be.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Then I had lunch at about 12:30. Four bites of Thai noodles with peanut sauce. The fourth bite already told me I blew it. Went into that dying mode - got stuck, kept throwing up, and it hurt like there's no tomorrow. I called Special K and asked if she would drive me home, which she did. The drive home was very painful - I felt every little bump and going uphill? Not pleasant. It wasn't until about 5:30 or 6:00 that I started to feel not so bad. Walked Sparky - thought I was hungry and tried to eat, but one bite told me no, wasn't ready for that.
Can't believe I got like that from noodles. I've done pasta with no problems. Only thing I can think of is the Thai noodle is a bit heavier than regular pasta. Very frustrating.
Today? I feel bruised inside. Had a creamsicle protein drink for breakfast (vanilla protein powder mixed with organic OJ) and plan on a tomato soup for lunch.
Gonna be a liquid day.
Monday, August 11, 2008
I haven't had the opportunity to see T & J for quite a while - used to work with T, once upon a time. Still miss her presence here at work - she was always such a chipper, joyous person to associate with. She's one of those folks that always has a smile on their face.
So, it was fun; she congratulated me on my weight loss to date and had lots of questions. She is one of my faithful readers (Hi, Miss T!)
So, I had a breakfast drink/smoothie from Jamba Juice yesterday morning - fortified with whey protein. Could only drink half - very filling. While sitting with Miss T, we had chips and salsa - very good! And then I went to pick up Special K at Costco and she had discovered a wonderful Mango Peach Salsa, so of course, we had to get some. And I had that for dinner last night. Even though it comes in a jar, it tasted so very fresh. Sweet, but not so sweet, with just a little kick to it. Very good!
When I went to bed, I was reviewing my intake for the day, and it occured to me - it was a chip day! Glad I had that Jamba Juice thing, cuz nutrition-wise the rest of the day? Not so good. The mango-peach salsa is very low calorie-wise, but all those Fritos in the afternoon and then the Tostitos white corn chips at night - whew!
Have a great week, everyone!
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Down 3 more this week - yea! But it's almost like torture, the days leading to the weight loss.
I'm not known for my patience :o)
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Going to the folks this weekend and Pop's got a newer digital camera. Maybe I can get him to take some better shots.
I know it's not a great pic, but those grey pants? Used to be skin tight. And I couldn't wear my Events Team t-shirt - I was busting out of it.
If I had to pick one thing I didn't like most, it's that doublechin (runs in the family on my father's side). Whenever I would lose weight previously in my life, once my face came back, the chin would disappear. I guess it's an age thing now, cuz it doesn't seem to be goin' anywhere. Oh, well....
Monday, July 28, 2008
Well, my tops? From a 5x to a 3x. My pants? From 3x to 1x or 2x, depending on the cut. It was a lot of fun trying things on and actually see a much better shape. I know I still have a ways to go, but my goodness. The store was having a clearance sale, and everything we got was from those racks. Got 3 pairs of pants and 4 blouses and 1 vest, all for $120. Not too shabby. Not quite the $5 pants I had envisioned from the thrift store, but all very nice, quality items, so that's a plus.
Oh, and pants - some go by X's, but some go by actual sizes. I was able to zip up a size 24. I haven't been a 24 in years! More like 28 or 30.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
A very nice co-worker brought in two pair of really nice jeans that didn't fit her anymore. Said she used to work at a Gap, and they are beautiful. They are a size 18 and a 20, and I don't think the 20 will fit yet. Special K wants me to try - thinks the 20 will already. We'll see - I'll try it later on this morning.
In any event, I need pants. Mine are all falling off my hips. Later today, we're gonna hit some thrift shops and Avenue and Catherines to see if we can find some on the cheap. Don't want buy anything too expensive only to have it be too big again in a few months.
Life is good.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
This morning, lamenting the lack of pants in my closet, I came across a skirt/blouse set that we had bought, what, maybe three or four years ago. We bought it because it's just my cup of tea (black with sage, beige and lavender floral print) and it was on a sales rack at Mervyns. I think we paid like $10 or $13 for it. Only problem it was way too small. I almost got rid of it last year when I cleaned out our closets, but I just loved the print.
It caught my eye this morning, and I thought that I would give it a try. It fits perfectly.
I'm feeling beautiful today.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Anyway, back to Saturday - we were at the fair in downtown Sequim when we got to the food court section and it was time for lunch. Looking at all their offerings, I saw my choices were very limited. They had pizza, gyros, bbq ribs, shimp/crab bakes (thought about those but too much bread), and Thai. I thought my best bet was the Thai, as they had chicken satays. Cool - ordered one of those, but after I paid, I asked for the peanut sauce and they said they didn't have any. They would have it the following day on Sunday. I said that didn't do me any good today, does it? Think they cared? No. Miss R said to give it back and we would find something else, but I really didn't think there was anything else so I kept it. Ate a small portion of the end, but man, was it dry. Very disappointing.
I was fine for the rest of the fair - I think because I was walking and that moved things around in there. But once we got in the car, I started to feel uncomfortable. And more we drove, the worse it got. I could just feel the pressure building. Poor Miss R - I was horrible company on the long ride back. I even dosed a bit - and I let myself, thinking I might feel better once I woke up. Nope. Had to get home so I could "lose" my lunch. And of course, I felt every little bump in the road. That was a hard trip. I was so happy to see my house.
It was about 7:30 when we got home and I was done for the day. Woke up around 3 am still feeling a bit yuck, but when I got up Sunday morning, I felt much better. Spent Sunday at Big Bro Dude's place - cooked up a steak for him, with garlic toast and snow peas. I knew better to try steak (and boy, at that moment, I really wanted it) - stayed with the toast and snow peas. And was glad I did later on in the day.
I really appreciate it now when I feel good :o)
Monday, July 14, 2008
So, it's 2:45 and I'm eating for the first time today. This isn't good. And then I wonder why I feel dizzy.
Yesterday, same thing. Didn't eat breakfast - had some chicken salad late morning. I had a cherry slushy from 7-11 (hey, it was hot and it sounded good and it was!) and some slices of cucumber in the afternoon while I was chopping cucs and onion to make a cucumber salad. Then a handful of peanuts late afternoon and some soy chips around 9:00. Even though the peanuts and chips are good sources of good fat and protein, I need to eat real food.
It's just seems so not worth bothering making myself a meal when I'm only going to eat three or fours bites. Now, if Special K or I make something for dinner we can both eat, that's different, but oftentimes, we do our own thing.
Now, drinking - I have no problem, other than having to do it slowly. Like the slushie - that goes down very easily. I've even had soda a few times now (gotta watch that - was hoping that craving would go away) and as long as I drink it slowly, I'm ok. And oddly enough, coke doesn't sit that well - I do better with 7-Up or Sprite, which I only tolerated before. Haven't tried alcohol yet - that kind of scares me for some reason.
So, making Tuna Surprise for dinner for both of us (a childhood recipe from Special K's family - tuna, mushroom soup and potato chips - sounds weird but so yum!). Should be ok.
Have a great week, everyone! Stay cool!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Feelin' good today. Lots of energy. Had a lunch meeting and was actually able to enjoy the taco bar. Made half a chicken taco, took a spoonful of rice and of beans, and away I went. I was able to nearly finish the taco, but I recognized the full feeling and stopped. That's something I always have to be careful about - stopping before I get too full; otherwise, it will not be comfortable.
Getting wonderful comments from co-workers - that's so much fun. Nice for folks to notice I'm "melting" away.
One observation I've had over the past few days is that my "affair" with food is changing. I no longer see the food commercials on TV, I mean, I "see" them, but I'm not really paying attention as I once did (oooo, look at that steak - want one! type of thing). This again is something I hope stays this way. I like not obsessing over food. I'm not missing the candy bars, the cupcakes, etc. Actually, I've had a doughnut (Kathy brought some home - mini doughnuts - from Starbucks - 0gr fat) - it was an old-fashioned and went done easily. I've had ice cream (Dibs - the little bites of vanilla covered in chocolate - but instead of eating the whole box at once, I'd have 4 or 5 pieces). I've had bread - whole grain - not even half a slice - all that would fit :o) But I'm enjoying fruit more - trying veggies, but they don't digest so well yet.
All about portion control and knowing your limits.
Monday, July 7, 2008
So. No beef for me yet. I do ground beef ok, but not steaks or flanks yet. Ah, well - it'll come.
Then, I went ahead and did almost the same thing on Saturday. I had chicken. Now, I've already done chicken several times so far and did alright. But I either ate too much of it, or I didn't chew it properly (I did eat it standing up at the counter, one piece for me, one piece for Sparky, one piece for me, one piece for Sparky, and so on), and I suffered for the rest of the day.
The horrible thing about getting like that? I can't even drink water. It gets stuck. And I cannot lie down to try to "sleep it off." The minute I lay down, it wants to come up.
I know the "rules." I know I'm supposed to cut every little thing I eat into teeny tiny little pieces and eat slowly and chew everything to smithereens before swallowing. But that's not a natural way to eat, and I don't always remember. But I'm sure that's what helped contribute to the size I had become - not being aware.
You can bet I'm aware now.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
I usually love potlucks and bbq's, but it will be interesting today to see what I can eat. This is their annual 4th of July bbq, and one of their employees always makes a Mexican dish - flap-sirloin meat, marinated, with rice and beans and salsa, with tortillas. So very good.
I'm hoping I can manage a few pieces of the beef. I've had ground beef and I've had chicken, both of which has sat very well, but I haven't done steak or straight beef yet. Been jonesing for a really nice steak.
I just hope it don't hurt. But only one way to find out.
Happy 4th of July, everyone!
Friday, June 27, 2008
But anyway, I was able to eat a handful of cherries and a half a tangerine last night along with my Boca Burger - YUM! It was great to enjoy a meal and not just go through the motions because I know I have to eat. It floors me that I, of all people, have to force myself to eat. What a turn-around from what I was before.
I just hope it lasts.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
This is starting to be fun. It's great to see my face again; it's even great to have all my pants hanging on me. It's wonderful to be able to put on a blouse that I bought because I loved it, but it didn't come big enough to fit me then. Now it fits. And I was right - it's really pretty.
I'm loving the good wishes I'm getting from my friends and co-workers - it's nice to hear how well I'm doing. The support and good feelings I'm getting from folks - amazing.
AND - my sleep apnea? Gone. My blood sugar? Low. Amazing how different just 50 pounds can feel. I lift my little Westie (he's just under 20 pounds) and I'm amazed how heavy that feels and that I carried 2 and a half times that on my frame.
Life is good.
Friday, June 13, 2008
I have been experimenting - had tuna salad a few evenings ago - that sat well. Had baked potato night before last - just a small pat of butter with light sour cream, chives, a few bacon bits - yum! Felt good to eat something and actually enjoy eating it.
I'm down 41 pounds so far - I'm in my fourth week out, so I think that's pretty good.
I didn't think about this before, but I think I'm going to have trouble with clothing. My jeans were just falling of me yesterday. I used to have clothes of all sizes, but when we moved last year, we cleaned out our closets and I got rid of a lot of stuff I wasn't wearing at the time. But I'd hate to have to buy stuff only to have it fit for just a few months before they're too big.
Ha! If this is my biggest worry, I'm doing ok.
Happy Friday the 13th, everyone!
Friday, May 30, 2008
Took a while to figure out how to get the 750 calories and 60 grams of protein down each day. All I can say is THANK GOD FOR MY SPECIAL K! I wouldn't have been able to do this without her. I already knew how lucky I was to have her in my life before this, but this experience has certainly confirmed it.
Will write more later. Thinking of doing some sample days for folks just getting home - I know it would've helped me.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
That's where the "uh, oh" comes in - I learned that one should be smoke-free for at least 4 weeks before the surgery to have any benefits in regards to the anesthesia that will need to be administered. While I've certainly smoked way less than I was used to, I still had the occassional ciggie, thinking it couldn't hurt.
Wrong. What a dunderhead I am - I should've looked this info up when I had my first ciggie after quitting. I wonder if that would've made a difference to me, as I'm finding I'm really hating not being able to smoke. While I like the fact that I smell better, and who wouldn't love all the money I'm not spending on the cancer sticks, I resent being made to do something I didn't buy into.
While I certainly believe just a few is way better than the pack and half to two packs a day, it seems just one can screw you up.
I feel like a naughty school girl.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Had my Special K's fabulous 'schetti's last night with garlic bread - my last supper - lol. I wanted to use this last week to try to lose 10 - 15 pounds before the surgery one week from today. So, goodbye, my old friend, Coca Cola (I am quite the Coke head - this I think will be harder for me than giving up my cigs) - it's been swell. I keep feeling like I'll never have a lot of foods that I love ever again, so I have to keep reminding myself that that's not so. Once I'm fully healed, I can eat whatever I like - just a very small portion. And as my father always used to tell me, "lekker is maar een finger lang." (Dutch - translation: delicious is just a finger long - basically means one or two bits is just as good as a whole plate-full).
Friday, May 9, 2008
Ever notice that one of your first thoughts of the day is "what can I eat?" or "what shall I have for lunch?" How about the afternoons at work? No matter how busy it gets, there's always that "gee, what sounds good for dinner?" or "hey, the weekend's almost here - to what restaurant shall we go to treat ourselves?"
And exchanged e-mails from my younger bro dude (he lives in another state and he's an RN - just got his masters - Go, R!) He's very supportive, so that made me feel good.
Blew my appt this morning to get my sleep mask - rescheduled for Monday. Less than two weeks away, now... my goodness!
Not a single cigerette this week - yea, buddy!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Did make my follow-up appt from my 2nd sleep study (which went much better than the first) and to get my sleep mask this Friday. It's all starting to come together.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
To able to walk as I was once able to... To get down and dirty in my garden (have always lived in apartments - last year, our apt went condo and we had to move. We found a duplex - first house/duplex in over 20 years for me - and I was so excited that I had an actual garden to play in, not just my "deck garden" I've always had in apartments.) To climb stairs without losing my breath... To walk the Sparkster for as long as he wanted... To go hiking or kyacking with Miss R, a friend of ours - who at 63, 14 years older than I, is in fantastic shape! Lord, there are so many things I'd like to do, but the weight is holding me back. I miss riding a bike. I really miss pretty shoes and looking nice when I get dressed up.
I do have a couple of small victories so far... Today is day 11 of not smoking (ok, had a few over the looooooong weekend - didn't realize the weekend would be so hard, and I kept myself really busy, too, so I'm not counting these :o) and when I walked Sparky on Sunday, I went a different route that had a very steep incline, one that normally would have had me stopping several times to catch my breath. I was able to walk it without stopping once and I was breathing pretty good once I got to the top. Amazing what a week and half smoke-free can do. As much as I loved smoking (and I truly did!), I love being able to breath even more.
Second sleep study tonight, to be fitted with a sleeping mask. This time, they promised me a room with a window - the first study I did was horrible with a capital H. That had been one of the worst nights of my life - I had even cut it short by leaving at 3:30 am - couldn't take it any longer. But they got enough data to determine I have acute apenea. So, it's Lone Ranger time - get to wear a mask to bed. How sexy is that?
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Pick a day, any day, huh?. How about Monday night? What time do you get off? Or perhaps Tuesday night, since you're off, and you could pick me up from work, so we'll have more time. Found a new Thai restaurant
And thanks for the Cutie - made me smile.
Interesting changes... all of which i would like to talk to you about. I can visit after work if that works for you? Pick a day.
I am glad about the no smoking, sad to hear you have sleep apnea, and concerned about the gastric bypass. Talk to me first, if you can.
love from me...
I've got a lot of changes going on, and I'd like to see you (sooner than later, I hope).
Number one change? I am now a non-smoker (ok, ok, mostly a non-smoker - had 3 over the weekend - weekend's a lot harder than during the week
Number two change? I have acute sleep apnea - being fitted for a mask next Monday and doing another sleep study (gotta tell you about the first one - one of the worst experiences of my life)... but they promised this time around I can have a room with a window.
Why the changes? Cuz I've been approved for gastric bypass surgery, which I'm hoping to get within the next two weeks or so. Very excited about this. Tired of being tired all the time - tired of not being to bend over for very long or get down on my knees to play in my yard/garden - tired of not being able to walk very far any more - tired of being out of breath alla time - tired of just being uncute and wearing tent tops and unpretty shoes.
You free anytime soon? Got weekends free yet? Cuz this Saturday would be perfect. Kathy's working, so we could have lunch, maybe see a movie?
Hope to see you soon - love you!